Well this past week I've been a lab rat for the docs again first being diagonsed with a blood disorder now being diagonsed with chronic fatigue needless to say They wanted to find out why I'm both sleeping all the time and in total complete pain whole body wise something that has been going on for the past 6 yrs. The Chronic fatigue is an on again off again thing with me at times I'm up for 2 hrs then pain total pain sets in and I sleep for 3 to 4 hrs. Then at times the total turn around I'm energized raring to go and totally sleepless for days on end. Right now I'm back to my fatigue and ever painful cycle and it does hurt but do I ever take anything for the pain. Nopes I'm very very anti drug don't even take over the counter meds for that matter. My only vice is smoking regular cigs and biting my nails off if I'm worried. Speaking of worry I have my two teenage sons that vow that their momma is dying and I keep telling them I'm not, my eldest is 18 and came home to say mom i've enlisted in the military so after grad I go off to boot camp needless to say where has the time gone. I have my two little ones that are worried about me too as I know they stay by my side at all times. My 3 yr old keeps saying momma u ok when I'm hit with another bought of pain. I try not to cry in front of my kids when I'm hit with the pain but sometimes I fail I don't want them to worry or hurt with me.

This was a rant mainly and as always I could always use a hug which I never seem to go without I love hugs.